Tuesday, August 18, 2009

I have a plan!

Goodbye
by Tammy Marie Denue

I always took for granted,

what I thought I'd never lose.

Because I never thought it would happen,

until I heard the dreaded news.

They say you were chosen for his garden,
His preciously hand picked bouquet.
"God really needed her,
That's why she couldn't stay."

Saying goodbye is never easy,
It's the hardest thing to do.
But what hurts me even more
Is not the chance to say it to you.

So today, Jesus, as you are listening
in your home above;
Would you go and find my mom,
And give her all my love!

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Today seems to be starting on a rougher foot than normal, just a bit more emotional i guess? I've noticed that when i turn my iTunes on (a daily basis when i get to work) that i haven't had it on 'random'. I just have it play the same playlist, straight down..every day. Hmmm, I should be tired of all those songs by now! lol! Anyway, there is a song on their that was my moms fav and my step dad used to sing it to her when they would go out and karaoke in their older days (lol...their olden days were only 10 or so years ago) AND this was her wedding march when she married Squeak (my step dad). Sooo, i've decided since i pretty hear it EVERY morning on my play list that i will take that 8 minutes and 2 seconds and that will be my daily time with my mom through the week. It's the 2nd song on my playlist so it is played sometime between 7:15 am-7:45 am. The phones aren't ringing yet, no one else is in my office till 8, so i have MY OWN TIME. I can have a few tears and not have anxiety over anyone seeing me. :) Ahh! Kind of refreshing actually. Soo yep, thats the plan. I like plans. They make me happy.

3 comments:

Rene said...

I love this POST, it's so nice to see a post from you. I have tears rolling down my check as I read your poem and post. It's unbeliveable what can make you think of the loved one that you lost. And it's never any easier when it was a parent or a sister. Know that I think of you and know how your feeling.

Angie said...
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Angie said...

That poem is really beautiful. I think your plan is perfect, Bran. And I know you're mom is so proud of you. And so am I.
I love you!
<3